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was hitting a ceiling like yeah i was making like 1.5 to 2 million dollars a month it was great the money was fine but i was just kind of like doing it everything i was chasing was like yo the next viral thing the next and it was it got repetitive and it got redundant and it wasn't who i really was because you kind of have the content grind that's the part that people don't see right like it's it's funny it's a special kind of sick who can do that over a course of a long enough it is it's psychologically like when you're conditioned and there's and i haven't you know i'm still learning and yet to experience another business model where the direct view equals a direct amount of dollar and like i studied me and owen have studied like the graph where it's like yo if this video got 20 million views that's an extra 30k on the day like it was something it's it's, it's, it's your, it's like, it's a drug. It was a drug. And I kind of lost myself in it. I lost, like, I didn't really know what I, I didn't see the long-term vision. I just saw like the week by week, month by month, like what's the next checkbook. It was, it was kind of fucking me up and I stopped being creative because I didn't have to be because it didn't matter whether I was being creative and putting a lot of money and time into content because I didn't have to. And I'm not saying that that's not a blessing because it is. And, you know, I'm extremely blessed to have been in that position, but I just kind of knew that wasn't where my heart was. And I love content creating and I want to be able to create things that are more reflect who I am. And I think stepping away to this day, I mean, it's the hardest thing I've ever done. And not to mention, like sitting back, knowing that the money isn't the same and I could go back in a, you know, it's very,