Transcript (en)

Healthy masculinity to me is, or even just something I've felt as transitioning is like leaning away from whenever there is some sort of impulse or expectation you've put on yourself to like shut down or conform in a way that usually feels like this, like I am closing off. I remember kind of being like, oh, Elliot, maybe you should talk with your hands a little or you know maybe in pictures you're because all ever since transitioning now i'm like johnny i'm smiling i am smiling in those photos whereas i used to be so i could barely look at a photo of myself i was always like you know and now and i'll be taking say a dude's like hey are you are you victor from umbrella academy you know and we're doing a photo together he's very i'm right yeah and like having that moment where i'm like oh should i also not like should i also be close it's just like what the fuck elliot what are you what are you talking about like oh honey you're the part of the problem